What Makes Me Feel Old

My oldest daughter is in the second grade and she's turning 8 in November.

I've now hit 25 and a whole new age group on paperwork.

My first job when I was 16 has since been torn down and is now a Starbucks.

Where I got my prom pictures taken is now a vacant lot.

It's just a few but it's enough to make me see that nothing good will come of being in the mid twenties. But I'm still young enough to make my boyfriend's old ass ex jealous that he moved on with someone better and she's got her own rejects.

Start of School

My little Miss Gwen is now officially a second grader. She's going to the same school as last year and kindergarten. I don't want her to have to go to yet another school and start off as the new kid all over again. She's happy at this school and she's well liked. She got all her school shopping done. Even though the teacher can't make up her mind what school supplies she wants. She got new clothes, even thought she's still fits into the clothes she got last year. A girl's got to have clothes. I think she was less nervous this year than the last couple years. She went with her teacher and didn't hang on my side. Means my little girl is growing up so fast. She's already saying she's a big girl now and not to call her baby girl or a little girl anymore. I'm not ready for her to be so grown up. But I know my little girl is growing up and I'm hoping I can teach her and be half the mom that my mother was.

What the Fuck?

I'll never understand why a man would have to pay so much child support for kids that are pretty much grown. How could you pay so much and the mom still can't afford anything. I think if they money really was being used on the kids, they shouldn't need anything. Even when she was getting the full amount every week, he was still a dead beat. What the fuck ever. My boyfriend's ex needs to get a life or if money is that tight get a job to take care of your own kids better. I raise my daughter for 7 years without a dime of child support. (Not that I wanted any from her father) And she had everything she wanted and needed. So women just can't do it own there own. I guess that's what happens when you're kids are nothing but dollar signs to you. I feel sorry for them all.